Why am I stupid?!?!

gah... I always feel like crying when I can't answer the questions! and I hate that... I always tell myself that it's no use to cry... and I'll start blaming myself that WHY AM I STUPID?!?! Why I can't do while others can???

I'm so panic about my SPM! I can't handle almost all the subjects well...

ESPECIALLY : -History -Chemistry -Additional Math -PM

I always failed these subjects... gah... and the other six subjects, I don't manage to get an A for them... I only scored around 40 - 75 marks... =.="

I'M SO LOUSY!

I hate myself that WHY I CAN'T STUDY AS GOOD AS OTHERS AND SCORE STRAIGHT A??? Why? Why? Why? I'm always asking myself this kind of question....

Is it my brain is not the same as others or what?

I can't memorize all those names... I told my mum that I need to drink or eat something helpful so that I will not forget things easily... but my mum thinks that I'm kidding with her and doesn't take it seriously... gosh...=.="

I HATE MYSELF BADLY! =(