Friday, December 17, 2010

Top Secret

yea... I'm gonna tell my feeling now... Suddenly turn emotionless... Everything flashed back in my mind... Feel like bursting my secret...
Well, I like a person... And I'm getting sick of it... It's so hard to like someone who won't like you back... I tell myself to knock it off but I can't... He keeps on running in my mind everyday... I tell you... EVERYDAY... none-stop... His face keep on show up and I keep on thinking how i met him... I always think of the time when was that close to him...
The first time, last year, the last day of tuition... It was raining cats and dogs... I was waiting for my sis to pick me and so did he... I was having sneak peek at him... And my six sense told me so he was too... (thought too much) after that my sis fetch me home... *He is so cool... He run his hand through his hair, absent-mindedly making me want him... gah...* I thought it was going to be the last time i saw him, but it wasn't. We still met the next year, which is this year, at another tuition(cause I changed my tuition session). Well, I was so surprised when I saw him on the first day of tuition. When I went into the classroom, he wasn't there yet. and I saw something similar but I couldn't recall. I didn't bother about it after that. I came in after few minutes. I was shocked cause he sat quite near to me... *heart pumping* when the class ended, we were waiting for the cars... He stood right in front of me... I didn't know what to do and I wasn't dare to look at him... Then he went off... Somehow, I always got a weird feeling that he often stare at me... (what ashame... I mean myself... I must be kidding to myself... What the hell was I thinking? Hate myself) Anyway, this kind of feeling didn't last long... Only last about half a year... Cause after that I've found out that he got a pretty and awesome girlfriend. To be honest, when I knew about it, I could really feel the pain in me. I don't know how to describe. My heart felt sour(in chinese)... Is that broken hearted? I'm not sure...
And I've found out that he's super rich... I didn't know it at first. I thought he was only normal rich when I first met him. But after half a year knowing him, I just found out that he'es living in glam... Everything is perfect for him... As well as he himself... And so, I told myself not to think too much... cause what I thought will never come true...
Besides, my heart was pumping real fast when he was sitting in front of me two weeks before the tuition class ended... Actually he was forced to sit there cause there's no more seat in the class. I can tell, my heart was pumping like hell fast and I can hardly breath. I bet that's what we call as "love"... lol... I'm nuts... Why would I feel that way? gah...
Anyway, the last tuition class was also the last time I saw him. After that, I never see him again. Even in other places... I wonder whether he ever go around the town? How come I've never see him at shopping mall...
Yea that's all what I wanna say... These are the memories about him... Good night... Head to bed now... Sweet dream! =)
*btw, I love his smile... He got a super nice smile and nice teeth*
*plus, whenever I see the same car of his around the places or even the same colour of car, it always remind me about him... =(*
Kay... It's time to walk through this... It's time for a new life without him... I can do it... Way to go! =)

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