I hate myslef!

Mood :

gosh. I hate myself... U know why???
Well... I just came back from PBK... I went to register for next year... but actually this morning around 11.30a.m I already register for it...
At first, there're two classes for Form 4 on Sat noon... One class is teach by the principal, Mr.Baluddin... while the other class is teach by the other teacher which the officer also cannot conform which teacher is going to teach it...
but anyway... I chose the second class which doesn't teach by the principal... cause I thought that I had to sit for the exam before I can enter his class...
So, I got all things (form and registeration) done... then I went back to the car...
I told my eldest sis that I didn't entered Mr.Baluddin's class... Then she scold me!!! err..... I said that when I enter Form 4 and Form 5, I must enter his class so that I can get well result for my SPM... So, what can I do besides just followed what she said???
This time she followed me to the counter and asked that whether I can change class or not... Then the councillor on 2nd floor said that it's kinda hard cause this case had to connect with the 1st floor while the councillor on 1st floor were out to lunch....
So...... We had to wait until 1.30p.m then just come back for the class transfered...

When I went home, I told my mum about that... My sis said that the principal's speed of teaching is kinda fast... They scared that I cannot catch up for it... and I also scared that I'll be very stress when enter the class... So they ask me to think carefully before I do my decision... My sis also said that if the other class is teach by the principal's sis then okay too... cause she teaches quite well too... but what can I do??? I already told the 2nd floor's councillor that I wanna changed to Mr.Baluddin's class...

During 1.30p.m... I went back to PBK again! My 3rd sis brought me there... She asked the councillor that whether the other class will be teach by who besides the principal... I was hidding behind the door... then the teacher said that they hadn't decided which teacher is going to teach it... then she asked my sis why she asked so.... then my sis said her sis wanna know about that. that's me! haha... then the teacher asked her that isn't her sis is Kay Sing??? that's me too... xD
when I heard my name... I looked into the room and the teacher saw me... She said I'm itchy... always change here and there... She told me to try 1st... If I can't catch up the class then just change to another class... So, I listened to her... I went to the 1st floor and told the councillor that I wanna changed to the principal's class...
U know what the the councillor said??? She said : " ai si lor... haven entered the class already want to change class..." then she checked the notebook... She asked me that: "You just registered this morning right??? Why so fast wanna change class already???"
Then I'm like : "ya..." =.="
but anyway, she allowed me to change class... then all the things just had been settle down...

haha... but I haven't tell why am I hating myself right???
well... I hate myself cause I'm so old already, but I still can't make my own decision!!!!!!!!!
I'm very confused... I always think about this and that but I just can't make my own decision!
That's so annoying u know???
Sigh... what a stupid me!!!! T.T

xxx K Sing xxx